My World is Big

Fortune.

No, I didn’t win an obscenely large lottery jackpot (although if you did and are in need a biographer, I do good work) but I’m talking about being really fortunate in your life. Everyone catches a break here and there. You avoid traffic, get dealt pocket aces, your exceptionally smooth and charming while flirting without realizing it. If by nothing than sheer odds, you get things your way some of the time.

Now when you talk about being really fortunate: constantly being surrounded by people who care, people who go out of their way to help, to teach, to support and, most importantly, to love… that’s a true jackpot.

Freewill is the double-edged sword of being a living breathing human. You get to choose whatever you want to do as long as you’re willing to accept (or be oblivious to) the consequences. And there’s nothing like it.

Trouble is, as great as it is when it comes to your decisions, it is really troublesome when it comes to other people. They have this pesky habit of not always doing what you want them to do. Now your intentions, be they noble or selfish, and whatever influence you hold in the situation can sway the outcome to great and lesser degrees, but you can’t make anyone do or feel anything. That’s not to say you can’t impact or influence someone’s life – part of them has to be ready for it. Beyond blunt force means of violence, money and deception, for someone to be moved by you part of them has to be open to the idea and risk that it presents and the change that it offers.

Face it, caring about someone is risk. Family, friend or self. Putting your love, trust and faith into someone is doing so in the face of the fact that through error, action or inaction, you can be hurt.

So why keep trying? Because the rewards are fantastic. Even if they aren’t forever, they make the pain and the fear seem distant.

My world keeps growing and my understanding of it and it’s people’s struggle to keep up.

Time to chase some risks.